Divorce looming #13

[K4D]

The way we have it set up is that I am supposed to have the kids every other week. We split equal time with them. She wants me to take the risks of everything and her sit in her safety net. I would love to have my kids in great schools. But I don't even know what my future looks like in 6 months.

She doesn't like the schools they are currently in. They aren't the best. But they aren't the worst either. They are probably mid range.

Times are tough as everyone knows. The economy is unstable. The job market is drying up unless you are a specialist with lots of experience. And for her to be doing this right now and expecting certain things of me that she herself will not risk is ridiculous.

I told her I am going to have to run things tighter as I don't have a fall back plan. I am going to have to save like crazy and watch my budget carefully so I have money should the worst happen. I told her my only fall back plan is a terrible one. And that is if I lose my job, can't get another one and can't pay my rent, I will have to end up back in Florida away from my kids and that would be horrible.

She doesn't care about me. So I have to care about me and do whats best for me right now. And that may mean that my kids are not in the best schools right now. She said its my fault I am in a contracting position. And I agreed and said that yes, I fell apart with this whole D situation. But I am trying to get back to stability.

I am not getting any phone calls on permanent positions right now. Its kind of scary right now. I don't have any family here in the Dallas area.

Kevin