Divorce looming #13

[K4D]

I had a good time again tonite. Second night in a row and I was the only dad both nights. The moms were great though and the kids had a good time.

I had a major setback today. W got frusturated with me about how I ran the budget and finally decided to take over her on her own. She got mad that I wasn't looking at places in the school districts she wanted the kids in and told me she can't move there. I said why not. How come I can and you can't? She said because if she loses her job, she won't be able to pay her rent since she is on a project. But the house she is in is her parents and they will allow her to miss rent to get another job.

I said must be nice. I said I don't have that fall back plan. So I am looking for what is affordable and closer to work. She said what is more important? Affordability or where my kids go to school. Its all well and good that she can say that with her safety net. I don't have a safety net and I am also on a contract position that doesn't pay what hers pays. She told me that she could make up the difference in cost. I said not if she loses her job and I don't need to be depending on her anyways.

I got upset with her and told her she again she is the only one that wants this D and me and the kids do not. She got more mad. I walked out. I was frusturated. She was to. She then told me that she gets offers all the time from other guys but chooses not to take them right now because she has to work on her own issues. She told me it will be years before she respects me as a man. And of course, I opened my big mouth and said what about loving me again. Oh I should not have said that. I spoke in the heat of the moment and I had been doing so well at not talking about the R with her. It was a frusturating afternoon.

She was also angry because she had done research on the school districts and sent them to me. She had asked if I wanted her help on that and I said sure. But once I started seeing the distances and price ranges I decided I have to go with what I can afford and where it is located. This angered her.

I couldn't win today and I should have just kept my mouth shut through all of it.

What a fool I was.

Me and the kids are home tonite after our meetup group. W joined one and went to it as well on her own.

Sorry about the W talk. But that was how the day went.

I did look at some places today and even a house. But I can't afford the house right now. So tomorrow I will be out looking at more places. I am writing down a list of places to look at tonite.

Kevin