Renee, I didn't mean to fight with him or be rude to him. I simply meant maybe you should stop wishing he will want to be your friend. All of the wishing in the world will not make that happen. If he says you are dead to him, I would consider that a pretty strong indicator that he does NOT want to be friends with you. Stop wishing, and just live.
"Success is the sum of small efforts, repeated day in and day out." Robert Collier
"One's best success often comes after their greatest disappointments." Henry Ward Beecher