Hey song, just wanted to let you know I am reading. I have been where you are like many of us. My H stayed away for months, we were living as divorced and although he refused to file everytime I suggested to get over with it, it was obvious he didnt want to come back to our M either. But, as soon as I accepted there was nothing I could do to make him make a decision and moved on, he started showing signs of interest. During that period my dad was disgnosed with cancer and had a couple of serious surgeries. Although, H was supportive, my attitude towards life hit a turning point. I stopped praying about my M (yes I am a Christian, an Orthodox but not as dedicated as many of you around here) and started praying about my dad.
Yes the pain you feel is unbearable but as we say in Greek, "God only "gives you" what you can handle". Accept it. Dont hold on to pain cause it will hold on to you.
Let her go. In your mind and soul, let her go. It's a decision. It's convincing yourself that you have no control over anybody else than yourself. It's scary isnt it? The ones we thought our lives were tied together, break that bond and prove to us we were wrong all along. Accepting it, will make you feel powerless at first but realising how you do control YOU, will make you appreciate your choices, your decisions. Stay strong, K
