After W dropped the bomb, I stopped listening to music because it was something that was integral to our relationship, and so many songs brought up painful memories.
Recently, I have started listening to music again, focusing more on records (if I can refer to bodies of music as records) that were not ones we shared, or even ones I liked that she disliked.
I went out to mow the lawn, and put on an old favorite, Nine Inch Nails - Pretty Hate Machine. She particularly disliked that one, and I hadn't heard it in a while.
Well let me tell you, I heard it through a whole new set of ears. That record is the ultimate testimony of a LBH. It has it all there - anger, angst, loneliness, pain, sorrow, pleading, conceding, backsliding, and finally acceptance. And the way the lyrics are so perfectly reflected in the music and the vocal performance really drives it all home.
If you've never heard it, I recommend you check it out, even if it isn't your style of music. If you have a copy, dig it out and listen to it, you'll likely hear it in a whole new light. If that style of music really just isn't your thing, at least google it and read the lyrics.
Brilliant, cathartic and liberating.
Would love to hear other records that have helped in this journey.
