I posted on WCW's thread about knowing how she feels about not regaining sex before menopause and knowing now how it feels to lose that plus the energy for sex, before my H finally wants it. I also don't want sex, I want intimacy, making love, not just having sex. I feel frustrated at times, being in this situation, that things weren't quite settled in our M before I got sick, but not much I can do about that either. H is doing the best he can, I guess. I think he is totally unaware of my needs ... probably thinks there are none except to fight for my health. It seems almost silly for me to be discussing things like 'sex' at a time like this, but it would be so nice to just have 'intimate speek' ... you know, talk about when I'm healthy and what we would do, how much we love each other and romantic stuff like that.
'Eh, I have another battle to fight in the war of life. I try not to concern myself too much with "what ifs" and just take each day as it comes. I am finding out that there truly is so much for which to be thankful/grateful. Romance and intimacy is a small part of life (although, a bigger part in a M). It helps to journal it here, and then try and forget about the hole in my M which H is unaware is there or chooses to look away.
Take care everyone and Happy Mother's Day to all the moms out there.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
