Healing my Heart part 7

[fightingirish]

Can this get any worse... Its 1am here. h came home around8pm of course we didn't say much to each other.

we went to bed, he says to me around 12 midnight, "do you want a divorce", i said no its not what i want, why is that what you want.. and he said yes, maybe. I said that's nice.

He said "just so you know im going out tomorrow night" I said what is that supposed to mean? (he never goes out) He said Im just telling you. I said "just remember your still married" He said what do you mean? I said its not a ticket to cheat? he said" is that what you think"... then he says im outta here.

He gets up, takes all the cash in the house, and leaves with my car. I go downstairs and the boys car seats are in the house with a note "sorry boys about the party, I'll see you soon' love daddy.

I called him on the phone and said what the hell are you doing?

h: Im leaving for the wkend to decide what I want.
me: what you want? are you kidding?
H: yup, I don't want you doing anymore bids are answering the phone for business anymore
me: I said what, are you trying to torture me, and turn this thing around like you are the one who is being treated badly?

h: You haven't spoken to me all week, so im going to take time to relax and figure out what I want.

me: its still all about you isn't it. You still don't get it.

H: You don't care about me at all, you wanted to continue this stupid fight and haven't let up.

me: I was hoping maybe this weekend we could talk and go to the communion togeather if you felt like it.

h: nope, im going away and won't be back till Monday.



He hung up. so now I have no car and no cash. We are expected at a communion tomorrow and my son is going to be so upset that we can't go.

Is this normal for then to react this way.. Why the hell is HE upset????? He's the one that is treating me like crap not the other way around?????

This may be the last straw for me. He almost will certainly cheat, he is giving himself an excuse, and Im going to have to come to terms with this some how.

I wish someone was up right now.. im freaking out.