"What I would love to see is for you to stop "fighting this". Detachment in the truest sense of the word means that this is not something you need to fight. You simply let go and let things happen. Understand I am not in any way saying that it won't work out down the road, who knows what God has in store for you?
Jimbo, the fear and sense of loss that you are experiencing is perfectly normal. However you have to be strong enough to not allow it to consume you. You have to truly let go my friend before this thing eats you up and makes you forget who you really are. You have a good group of friends that can help you through this. Use them, now is the time. It is time for you to let go though bud, it is not healthy to allow it to be an anchor around your body."
AMEN!
IAN, you said this more beautifully than anyonce could have ever possibly considered. Jimbo, in terms of nature, you are a shimmering rose in the middle of a garden. Sensitive tho you may be, remember your inner strength, and follow it.
When I read your note yesterday, I could almost hear your sorrow. But, if you think deeply on this (and I know how capable you are to think deeply) you will recognize that if you can just push through that sorrow, you will find your peace. I know it.
