he is back, i think

[mdoodles]

thank you so much for your advice. after i read your post to me, i unsent an email i had sent my h about him not coming to bed etc.

i do alot of emailing to him, to get my feelings out - but u are right, i should just be the best i can be and no big talks.

i went into the store today and i am doing everything i can to help out there and keep him from worrying too much about the business. he mentioned that we should go out for dinner tonight (to my favorite restaurant), i reminded him we are going to his brother's house for a birthday dinner, but i would love to go out tomorrow night.

its just so so hard to not take things personally and so so hard not to worry that i am not doing something right, that perhaps he is second guessing his decision.

i keep waiting for the other shoe to drop, for him to not come home.

it hurts me at night when he chooses not to come to bed, but i dont go pulling him off the couch. i send him nice emails, telling him i miss him in bed - he knows he is wanted there.