he told you not to contact him, after you asked him what he wanted.
Are you going to supplant his wishes with your own? In his eyes...more than likely, yet again? I mean why even ask what he wants if your going to ignore it? That sounds cold, it wasn't meant to be. Trying to show you how he might be thinking.
If he was sorry he said that, it is on his shoulder to tell you, not for you to maybe contact him to see if maybe he regrets saying that..because if I were to bet...he doesn't, but you sure as sure will regret trying to find out if he maybe regrets it.
Bottom line, is it a negative to reach out after everything you just told us?
Bottom line is I think so, bottom line, I wouldn't. But hey, I don't wear your shoes, your miles to walk not mine.
Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn. - C.S. Lewis
Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B. - Jack3Beans
Listen without defending; Speak without offending - FaithinAK
