Wednesday, I got a deep massage to try and help my back problem, and that has 'changed' it somewhat. It still hurts, but any change in the way it feels is new to me, and maybe on to something that will help.
Anyone reading this looking for some pampering for yourself, I recommend it, spend a little on yourself, I felt good afterwards!
Thursday, I met with a new C to try and work on myself, it always seems I have a lot of work to do, but I have to start somewhere, so will be going back in 1.5 weeks for another meeting.
My sitch at home has not changed much at all, although my W seems somber and unhappy all the time at home, we rarely speak, and when we do, she seems to be the one that ends it first, no matter how quickly I try and be the one that ends the conversation.
I actually felt pretty good yesterday, but when I got home and started to play with my D, it all just hit me again. Man knowing we are going to be splitting up soon and just looking at her current angelic face is killing me. I never let her know I am hurting about it, she is such a good kid, she is going to have a rough time..
I still need to make more plans for myself, and my D on weekends, I need to be away more and more mysterious. The GAL plan needs some more improvements.
We'll see how this weekend goes, the function at my D school could be tough, but I'll act as if, and go on no matter what happens.
M: 41 STBXW: 41 D: 9 Bomb: 4/26/09
On board the D train now..
"Suffering is when we try to change what we cannot."
