I think that its great that you have finally gotten angry. You deserve it, you have been very mistreated. Do some research, on here you should look for posts by Dance queen, she has some great info, and read some of the stories on the affairs board.
When they are doing these terrible things, going dark is about the best thing you can do for yourself, and your D. Seeing him is so upsetting, it seems like its easier for us to be stable and confident when they arent around. There is not one person on here who doesnt need more of those kinds of days.
Hope is a very strange thing, it seems like just when you lose all of it, you get a new reason to have it.
I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...
