Strength and wisdom to know what God is telling me? Strength and wisdom to know His will for me, and to see it through?
YES!!!!
Look I know absolutely what you are going through as far as S and D. It sux...
My W has told me at least six times in the last two years it's over, the last time being a week ago (btw I know she means it also). The thing is she still hasn't filed even though she has the papers...AND we (the family) are going out for M-day. I'm telling you this because you need to judge her by her actions NOT words. It takes a lot mentally to actually file the D, it's "easy" to say your going to do it, it's hard to actually do. So while like you I think my W is going to file I'm prepared if she does or doesn't because either way my life is going to be ok.
So I should pray for God to give me strength and wisdom to know His will for me and see it through? I've been doing that. Haven't had an epiphany though! Kinda disappointing too!
Yep...it does suck! I know there are others here who are hurting too...many others. Lots of them have it worse than others too...especially those dealing with infidelity. That's just sorry!
I'm glad that you guys are still able to at least spend some time together. I'd give anything to be able to do that. Except for my kids, I feel like I'm alone on the planet. She seemed pretty darned resolute the last time I talked to her regarding us! I know actions speak louder than words...but her words hit hard, like a sledgehammer! I hope she doesn't do it. I guess I'm not prepared if she does file, because I'm not at the place where I know my life is gonna be OK if she does file.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.