I'm in counseling and on antidepressants to try to cope with everything. I haven't been myself since this happened!! Just want to gain the weight back that I lost (way too much). So am doing that, eating better and back to cleaning house again. I know they aren't big things but I couldn't do anything for 4 months, just didn't care! I'm going to get my hair done on Wed. It needs it big time!! LOL

I'm just so confused now because he has been calling....don't know if he wants my daughter or he's calling because he is in contempt of court for not going to her counseling appointments. I don't want him mad and push him further away but I have no say in the matter!!

He will blame me for it though!! His depression has him so clouded, he is the one that went to court for vistitation rights etc. and now he is ruining it on himself!!! I would have let her go with him whenever she wanted!! But I think the parents (his) pushed him to go to court for it!!


M 41
H 35
D 12
S 18
Separated 11/08