trying to be strong and patient 14

[whatdidido]

Things are moving in the right direction for you. I'm so glad. And, yes, I think things will all work out. You are one of those people that thrive when you are busy. I wish I was like that. I tend to stress way out.

[karen43]

I'm happy being busy & I stress out sometimes. But usually pretty happy. I didn't figure that out until I found this place!

I called and got a job interview at the local community college (receptionist) for Monday at 4:00pm. We had set an appt. 3months ago for D9's psych at 3:00. S15's eval is set for 9:30 to 1:30. I wanted to have time to eat lunch and get ready for the interview, and asked H if he could take D9 to the appt. or I will reschedule it. He emails back why don't I just go to the appt. and drop her off? Um, b/c I want to have lunch and get dressed for a job interview... I emailed back I'll just reschedule it. I have a meeting at 5 and a teacher conference call at 7:30 so one less thing would be good anyway!!!
Karen

[karen43]

Had fun working the benefit last night. It was fun. I helped with getting stuff on/off the stage and the curtains and whatever I could. A couple friends just attending were like (we saw you taking the mike off) like I had done something amazing. Funny! Got to see all my friends, the one guy I was helping, said his other friend had told him some stories about me, and I said like what, and he said I made a mess when I was painting the first time there. I'm betting he's heard stories about H and OW maybe too? Oh, well, life'll get more normal soon.

H came to pick up the kids early yesterday at 6:30 (I had told him I had to work 6:30 on). I was running late b/c D9 took forever to get out of her art club. She had cut up like a 100 pieces of little paper into different shapes, and I said no way we don't need that with moving this week, and she said no, I want to take them to dad's so I said, ok, great idea!

I felt friendly but detached today and didn't avoid H. When I picked up the kids, I pulled up next to him. I didn't really chat, but was chatting to the kids more in a friendly way asking them how they were. H had to check out the car again (some of the front body work is messed up a bit, I don't think it's ever been completely the same since the tree did the $8,000+ damage to it.
Then he told me S15's eval has been changed from 9:15 to 9:30 already set up by H and the tester on Friday. Again she didn't tell me any of that, and it was nice of H to tell me. I guess. I was slightly stunned to see him. He's still got the beard and just looked I don't know what. He looked me in the eyes and didn't act weird today so that was good. I still don't plan on being friends with him ever again, but that's almost work for me so I don't know...

I found some boxes (free) at goodwill on the advice of one of my friends that works there. And am going to pack and start driving some stuff over to the new house. I wanted to make sure all the lights and a/c aren't on b/c the electric is on. Hope everyone's having a good weekend!!! Feel free to post some y'all as I am missing you.

Thanks for updating today Jeff!!! I pray for you and many others here also, I mean not that you need it, but that things will work out well which I know they will!

Karen

[kat727]

I hope you are able to get a lot of the packing done. At least you were able to adjust the time with the mover. Who knows what is going through your H's head...I doubt that even he knows. Just keep on the path you have gotten on. I think it is the right one for you.

Happy Mother's Day!

kat

[PositivelyMommy]

Karen, your life sounds so full.

Happy Mother's Day to you too!

[karen43]

Just came back from having S15 evaluated. She said one more hour tomorrow and he'll be finished. I asked her when H was out with D9 when she came out for a bit to tell me all was going well, how long would the reports take for her to finish up. She said about 3 weeks so around June 1st. When H got back he asked the same ? of course.

H shaved his beard and looked so much better. Also wasn't cold distant guy or angry guy today--he was acting normal. But I've seen that before in the past year and it doesn't last long usually.

He took D9 to get snacks for the kids and also bought a piece to fix my slightly broken front end (I mean my car). And it looks like he fixed it. What's the DBing rule--if you don't care to reconcile, is it ok to email a thanks for that? I still think generally NC is best for my PMA, but that wouldn't bother it would it?

Also, D9 asked him to sit on the couch and have him read her favorite story (from the Stinky Cheese Man which is her favorite book), and he did. But a little bit after finishing he jumped up to a chair across the room. I told D9 to let him read "The Ugly Duckling" which is my favorite story in the book b/c it's funny (and short), and H did, and agreed it was really funny (like surprised I could tell or something).

Then he had bought her some gooey cupcakes and suggested she eat them outside and I said well that rainbow color (frosting) would look good on the couch prob. and he said something like no, and I said that was a joke, and he said I know like he was a normal person relating to me. Weird.

Have the job interview this afternoon, so I've been reading one of those Dummy or Idiot's books to Interviewing. Cross your fingers and toes, and pray, and whatever else you can think of!!! Karen

[Puppy Dog Tails]

Have the job interview this afternoon, so I've been reading one of those Dummy or Idiot's books to Interviewing. Cross your fingers and toes, and pray, and whatever else you can think of!!! Karen

I'll do all of those, Karen!

And I don't think there's anything wrong with a thank-you.

Personally, I've never met you, but I bet your front end is just fine.

Puppy

[whatdidido]

How long has it been now, Karen? I imagine your H is getting close to hitting the reality of it all by now....even if he doesn't admitted it, I'm sure he is seeing all that he has lost.

Good luck with the interview!

[karen43]

Thanks Puppy! Well, the PA he says started in 11/2007, but I bet the EA started sometime early that year, so prob. about 2 years ago it all started, and I do think he's had MLC. I think some of the fog has cleared a little maybe. I think he is going through MLC and has gone through some depression recently--he looked awful and several people told me so. He seemed better today, but you never know...He def. looks better.

I think when the addiction/withdrawal ends with OW he'll kick himself. If he's got any sense at all which sometimes you have to wonder.

I just had another interview. It sounds like a great job at the local community college. I'm prob. too overqualified, but hopefully they'll consider me. I've been doorhanging brochures for the past couple months so this would be a promotion for me really. I met with the Dean, and he said he'd call the person that gets the job in 3 or 4 days. I dyed my hair light brown btw a few days ago, which I think makes me look more professional hopefully than the blonde was. I'll just keep trying my best and I know some day someone will hire me and it'll be the right job for me. Karen

[karen43]

Well more fun. I just got served paperwork re: the foreclosure. 20 days to file a written response. So am I still safe to live here the next day and 1/2 do you think? I feel like such a deadbeat. I hope H can work this out so we can avoid it! I'm going to give him his copy: it's actually says he's the defendant but they also gave me a copy and served me I guess b/c I'm dumb enough to still be living here!
Karen