Desperate for direction

[Doingitright]

I read your ditch. It is scary. I ran a CYO for 4 years. The W and mirrors is so anoying. She said she saught attention from the EA that she felt she wasn't getting from me. I just can't wrap my head around how I do a 180 on that. She exercises in front of me like she is expecting me to say something. I am also have the 1 step forward 2 steps back happening every day. The problem is you neverget back to where you were. Sitting next to eachother was a big thing. It got to be leaning on me for 2 nights. 2 days later W says sorry when she close to me. Says she wants to figure out how we can become more than room mates with our counselor. I relay it to the MC and tell her I relayed her message and she said she forgot she said that. The request came at the end of a 25 minute call that was all about our situation. That hasn't hapened in 12 weeks. Then last night nothing that we have been doing for weeks happened, not good night, no kiss god night, no holding hands. She did put her arm around me sometime during the night. When I touched her hand she immediatly turned over and faced the other way. It is all so confusing. It is hard to follow plans when it changes daily.