Naej,

I'm sure you're right that if she was desperate to get a D then she would look in to it herself. I know she's not desperate to get one but I don't know how she'd act if she had the option right there in front of her, right now. That's all I was trying to say.

Anyway, a bit of journaling is called for methinks!

I picked up Wee Man from the child minder again last night and took him home to get him fed and bathed due to my W not being too well. When I took him down to my W's house I asked how she was feeling and basically told her I hope she improves soon.

I am planning to go back to her house tonight to bath him so I can see him again before he goes away on his holidays tomorrow. I asked her what time she normally baths him so I can aim to come down for then. She told me about 6.30-7.00 so I said that's fine, I'll go home and have my dinner after work and then pop down. It's what she said next which shocked me somewhat. She said that she would have offered to cook my dinner but if she wasn't feeling much better it's unlikely she'd even be cooking for herself. I told her that was ok but I wouldn't want to put her out when she was feeling off and I was more than happy to grab myself something at home before I come down. I then gave wee man a kiss and a cuddle and left.

That's the first time she's offered anything like that. I know that she didn't really offer since she basically told me she wouldn't be doing it afterwards but the thought was still there and I see that as a good baby step. Looking back, possibly I could've offered us both a take away to save her the bother of having to make anything but I want her to make a move this time. I don't want to be the one always suggesting these things. Plus, I actually have dinner plans with some friends tonight. I only told her I would go home after work and have some dinner so she didn't think I was going to be sitting at home, twiddling my thumbs till I came down.

So, I feel a bit more invigorated today. It helps that it's Friday too! I've no plans to go out this weekend but I'm hoping the weather improves a bit so I can get out cycling. Not been in a while. I also lost about 3lbs this week so life is looking up. Long may it continue!

Kev


Me: 32, Wife: 22
Son: 2
Married: 2 years
Separated: January 5th 2009

Sometimes you have to become lost before you can find yourself.