Sorry I've taken so long to reply this week, but I've been killing myself w/work and getting the kids ready for tomorrow's AP US History test. It has been a long week and I'm tired.
Anyway, I'm not planning on dwelling on the "why now" part, but I can't help but have some feelings of sadness over the whole thing and its timing. I'm going in a different direction and I wasn't planning on being here. However, I'm here and I'm here for a reason, so forward is where I'm going.
I do hope it means we'll be able to have a decent co-parenting relationship. But a lot of this will depend on how sincere and lasting these "changes" are in XW. Don't worry Kalni, I'm still very much on guard w/her. There will be NO lowering of the defenses until there is a long, long, long pattern of consistent behavior. Even then, the shield will only come down a tiny bit.
Carlos, I'm doing well w/my new outlook on self-discipline. It hasn't helped w/exercise this week as I've been putting in 12+hour days staying after w/kids to review for the test, but I've been forcing myself to get grades done and more prepping finished at school that I'm a master at putting off. So, I've been very productive at work this week and I like the new focus on "doing what I need to do when I need to do it regardless of how I feel about it."
