I have talked to my H now. I have heard all the this is what happened and the I know that what I did was wrong even if I did not knowit while I was doing it. I have heard the please give me another chance, the denial that he physically cheated on me but yes he did all the other stuff and so on. He has said that he will be completely committed to making this marriage work, that he will go to counceling and has even set up an appointment already to go, has said that he will quit his over the road job so that he is home every night, that he will take a lie detector test to prove that he has not cheated on me. and that he can't live without me and the girls.
I listened, I asked him questions about committment, trust, love, being faithful, putting his family first instead of himself, being a selfish, self centered, arrogant, sex addict and how he could change those things about himself to be the man that I married, trusting him ever again, believing the things that he says, believing in him again and so on.
I am not saying that I will give him another chance, but my heart is saying that I should and my head is saying to run. I will have to admit that I still love my H but I love theman that I married and not who he is now. Yes, I do want my M to work but I don't know if I can fogive him.
Does anyone have any advice on this? My best friend that knows everything about his situation, has told me that I should follow my heart, to put the D on hold for a bit, and in the mean time if he does all the things that he says he will then maybe I should give him a second chance. I am so confused and annoyed by my own feelings.
Please give me some feed back on this.....
Me-31 Him-28 D1-9 D2-6 Married 5-06 Seperated 12-07 He filed 1-08 Reconciled 4-08 D dropped 7-08 Bomb dropped about H's activities outside the marriage 4-21-09 Filed for D 4-28-09 Trying to make a go of it 6-09
