Well, to be honest still recovering from a weekend of drinking, watching the likes of Elvis Costello, Los Lobos, George Clinton and the parliament Funkadelic, SNOOP DOGG, G-love and the special sauce, and Rise Against in the pouring rain. I have been sick and a bit hungover for about 4 days.
Pshhht. What kind of excuse is this?
Well, I read your post to Trapt, and if i disregard the times you called him the P word (I try not to say that one, unless...well, nevermind) and the advice to grow a pair, I guess you're right, it's what I needed to hear.
Honestly, Ian, it is so hard for me to not let the littlest thing affect my attitude. But, I am very aware of what this has done for me, and I am trying very hard to change this about myself. I know that I assume way too many things. I am sure that what I am assuming is rarely even close to the truth. I take the worst case scenario to the next level at times! I am quite sure there is a way to stay aware (not too naive), yet not conjure up horrible ideas of what could happen.
I hear you on the pursuit thing, and I appreciate your concern. He needs to ask me out, I know this. I will wait and see this weekend if he brings up the bike shopping. It's not much, but it's a start. I need to be able to be happy Pam around him--- I haven't been that person in a long time. I just want to hang out, talk about nothing, and enjoy each other's company. I have been putting far too much weight on each interaction. I have lost myself in trying to be perfect.
Ian, thank you.
I really think I am on my way to something much better. And I am saying that, and meaning it, even though there is no guarantee that XH is included.
