Healing my Heart part 7

[fightingirish]

So tired tonight.. But I wanted to update before bed.

I talked with h's best friend. He has always been there for both of us, and If H is going to listen to anyone it would be him. He has gone through Divorce (his W cheated about 3x's) He's know My h since kindergarten, so there are no secrets, he knows his flaws etc. so H cannot bullsh** him.

I told him that I was at the end. That something has to give, and that he's got to meet me half way. So he said he would try and convince him to go fishing with him on Saturday and was going to lay it out for him, that he was going to lose me and the kids if he didn't start showing some effort on his part and go get help.

The only persoo who could say this stuff to him is his best friend. He takes it really well. So that's my plan with that.

If it doesn't work than I will have to do a wait and see until the end of the school year, which isn't that far away, then if I had to and if things are still as they are with no end in sight, I can move out for awhile without disrupting S6's schooling.

I don't know if this is a great plan, but its the only one I have, this is not easy for me to even make the decision to leave, because I don't want to, but I also don't want to continue to live like this.

He did just call me back but was asking me general questions, and then he said he was on his way home. That's it.

Well goodnite all...