Strange New World

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Hey Msm, Kenn!
I am not on the computer as often since I lost my free internet connection. I will probobly call TW and get my own wireless soon.

I have decided to sell the house b/c I am not keeping up with the bills ( temp. slowdown in work) and before that was not getting ahead. I have found a nice place to land however, as the night manager of a bed and breakfast about 20 min. away. No mortgage, utilities, free cable/wireless and I will be able to have the time and $$ to re-invest in my buisness and education. Perhaps really make a career change...

Ah, if she would only read some books about men & see your POV.

Really!!! When I mention that a lot of men do this or that, she says its only me. I only say that b/c I know either from experience or having confirmed it in my reading. But she thinks I'm rather unique in my thoughts and actions.

I think she is extraordinarily myopic and has a hard time realizing how her actions have affected me and have harmed our relationship.

Again, if it wasn't for our daughter, I would let her go. Not that I don't love her. Just that it is so unrewarding to hang on right now.

She is buying a house, a small crackerbox with a lot of deferred maintainence, but it will be her own where she can sit and look out the window for hours at a time ( a little exaggeration) without me pressuring her to help me clean the house or some other mundane and otherwise unpleasant duty that life brings.

Sometimes I wonder if what it will take is me starting to date someone else. I have told her she has until the end of our seperation period ( and after our divorce?) before I begin to consider dating again.

Right now, just trying to navigate survival...getting the house ready to sell, readying my new place...dealing with credit card debt....a lot on my plate. House goes on the market on the 16th.

As far as belly dancing, I am going to google that for our town in a few minutes...she is still interested.

Thanks for being there everyone!