Back here again!!

[JCJ]

(((Mishka))) I wish we got 6 weeks, that would be amazing!!

(((Ms M))) Thank you so much! I lose my confidence when I overthink. What you said made so much sense. I equate him saying no with failure, thank you for reminding me it isn't. I just need to do things with zero expectations and not take things to heart!

[JCJ]

*roll my eyes* I plucked up the courage to send h a casual text which I did, he replied to my comment and also said did I get his email. He sent it to my personal account which I hadn't checked today. He wants to meet to sign the contracts for the house, but did ask me if I wanted to go for food as well. That is an improvement on before.

So, I stressed today for nothing Seriously, cheeseless tunnel stressing out!!!! To be honest I think it may be a little to do with hormones at the moment I need to chill!!

Oh, and my chairman totally went for my work idea and is really behind me even though it is a bold move. Doing well at work makes me feel good, I feel I have vegetated for a while. Work and personal success is really important to me and always attracts h as he gets really involved. Still, that is a by-product. I'm excited and eager to embark on it!

[MsMelancoly]

Congats on the work idea!!! Doing terrific!!

[JCJ]

Thank Ms M!

[mishka422]

Awesome Julia! Fabulous that your chairman thought your idea was great. When you get it organized you will need to share it with us.

[JCJ]

I just got back from meeting h. He did the usual thing of leaving it late to tell me when and where but I wasn't stressed about it.

I arrived early at the restaurant so got a table and read my book. When he came in he greeted me with a real genuine smile, not the usual guilty half look like he used to have. We got some drinks and said toasted his new job. He then spent ages talking about it and I listened and made some good observations. He seemed to really like talking about it with me.

Then we got onto talking about my work idea and this really stimulated the conversation. He got really into it, which I knew he would, and gave me some really good ideas and suggestions. He is always really good like this and that is how we used to bond by bouncing ideas of each other and showing enthusiasm and supporting each other.

We talked about it for ages and I could see he was really impressed with the idea and me. When we talked before about his job he started explaining a few things a bit too much and I was slightly wondering if he thought I was thick, then I realised that it was probably the level he was used to speaking at (sorry, that sounds bitchy but I don't think ow is amazingly bright).

At 2 points his phone rang. The first time he said 'oh that's work, they can get lost I'm not at work anymore'. A MAJOR difference to pre and post bomb! That was my biggest grievance that he used to prioritise work over me. Then the second time I think it might have been ow by his face. Then he screwed up his face and cut it off, a few mins later he said 'oh, I should check that' and sent a text. Who knows if it was ow or not but at least I seem to have his attention now when he is with me.

We signed the contracts for the house. And he said' I suppose that is it'. I think as in that is the house gone. I didn't really know what to say to that so I kept quiet.

Lastly, before we went our separate ways I went to give him a hug (a 180 for me) and he hugged me and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I think it was unintentional but quite funny. Can you imagine him giving me a kiss a few months ago?

He came in to the restaurant quite down and left in a really good mood. He is so lovely! So onwards and upwards. Let's see what happens next!

P.S - I have a date next week (not with him!), I'm being taken to Gordon Ramsey's restaurant - exciting!

[mishka422]

Sounds like a VERY good night together. Good convo, good interaction, eye contact.....GOOD! I'm stunned that you hugged him and he didn't pull back. That is great progress!

I'm jealous! Gordon Ramsey's restaurant? I'm sure it will be amazing. You'll need to share the experience with us here of course. Who is the date with?

[MsMelancoly]

Hey Julia, That's great!! Very cool! Good to hear you had a nice time with your H. Sounds like some real "friend"ly conversations. That's what it's all about, making a new impression of yourself for him to remember

And ... you have another date .... lucky girl!!!

My H emailed me, looks like we are doing dinner tonight as well.

[transformer]

Good job, Julia!!!!!!!!

I am so proud of you taking initiative at work and customizing your experience, and so glad that you got your supervisor's support! Please keep us posted!


it is friggin' AMAAZING that your h kissed you on the cheek. I think if that happened to me I would probably puke with happiness!!!

I also think it is really important and great that he came into the restaurant in a bad mood and left in a good mood. That means a lot.

keep it up!!!!
LOVe
T

[JCJ]

(((Mishka, MsM, T)))

Thank you It was funny because when he kissed me I didn't kiss back because I was too gob-smacked and by the time it had registered that he had the moment had past! Also, he has grown a bead and it is bristly and I was kind of fighting that, lol. Still, it shows that he is relaxed with me and doesn't have such a huge WAS guard up.

I tried out something new with him too. When I have been on dates guys have commented on my eyes and if I look at them in a certain way it seems to um... work? So I tried that a little on H last night, for few short moments I held his gaze and then let it drop - I think it worked then too as a different (not bad) expression crossed his face. So I am going to slowly experiment more...