WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 8

[confusedinpa]

I do think I've been colder than I thought I was. I think I got carried away with the Dark/Dim when we are together.
I've gotten caught up in the whole debate of being her short term security blanket.

We're going to a baseball game tomorrow nite where my 7 year old is throwing out a pitch. So I will try to be "attractive" while we're together. When we're apart I'll have to go back to Dark/Dim

It's so confusing trying to keep flip/flopping back and forth