Well I spoke too soon... G and Cher and my ex have arranged for us all to go to bandnight! She said my ex knows I am coming, he is staying over at hers... Oh god, why do I suddenly feel so nervous !? Silly I know.. but its because I feel like I am constantly on trial.. he still hasnt said he wants back.. still weighing it up ("will it go back to how it was before??").. I dont think it would, but theres only one way to find out hey.
