I just wanted to come by your thread and say that I think it's great that you're reaching out to some folks lately. I think you have a TON of empathy, wisdom and experience that you can offer others after living thru what you have with such "strength and honor." Even just the occasional "Hey, I've been there -- hang in there" encouragement is often all someone needs when no one is answering them.
I hope you'll keep it up, and "pay it forward" as Coach, Bill and others have done for you. I think you have a lot to offer, and that you have a gift in this area.