Healing my Heart part 7

[fightingirish]

Nc- I think you are very right.

rob- Thanks I will check it out!

Doc,- That's just it, I will say most of the time WHEN he does something I tell him I appreciate it. I tell him I know how hard he is working to get us some work. Etc. But there's not a lot of things he does that need reconizing either. Except for the work part. He hasn't been nice in a long time.

And maybe those times I don't say it every time, but enough for me to wonder what more he is looking for. The problem is, is he doesn't appreciate anything I do. he thinks its expected therefore doesn't say anything about the job im doing. So its a no win situation. But I do have to say that I do praise him for working hard and that I know he is trying. what more can I do.

My needs aren't getting in the mean time, but its much more than that. If that were the only thing i would deal with that, but its the constant critizim, and anger and swearing that im so sick of.


Journaling~

S6 wanted to say goodbye this morning to his father, so I called him on the cell, of course he didn't answer. S3 was looking for him this morning. This is what is so sad, because i know what will happen if I do leave.

Anyways he hasn't called me (which is unlike him) but things also haven't been this bad before, so I guess I should expect it.

My mom called this morning and wants to take me out to cheer me up, although im really not in the mood for that, I will go just to get my mind off things.

thanks all for your help and care.I don't know what I would do if I didn't have this board.

xxoo