Maybe trying was the wrong word--I will not give up hope. I am the calm in the storm for DH, when he is ready to seek safe harbor.
God has the rope for me and DH. This was affirmed for me at church tonight. The bible study was on turning from sinful lives and finding your way home to God. The story of the Prodigal was used to convey this, as well as parts of the Epistles of John.
For years, my DH was my world. He is not anymore. There is a small part to the side for him when he is ready to come home. I had to move him over, as the hole in my life was consuming me. Now, it is a small hole that God can help me around when things seem too hard to bear. When DH is ready to refill his place, I will allow him more room in my life. For now, though, this is what it is. It does not mean that I am not here for him, that I cannot try to show him, through my actions and love, that there is a different, better choice than the one he is following now.
Living God's blessings with grace and dignity~ SMW
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Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. I Corinthians 13:7
