Yes of course there is. But I hope I dont come across as cold and hard as I used to be because really I am not anymore. alive&kicking asked how I tried to change. Actually my change about that, started before H left or even dropped the bomb. But I was changing in other areas of my life, work, friends, parents, not with him. And we didnt spend enough time together for him to even notice the difference that WAS slowly happening.
I am sure he expects me to snap at him more often that I realise.But 2 years now, I have been very consistent with that. And I have been angry at him and told him on occasions, but I tried to explain my anger and talked about it and didnt attack him to just "win". One side of me that I 've lost contact with lately, sadly, is the romantic, dreamy, trusting side of me that I had found last year. But that only harms me, he has shown no interest sharing my dreams or being romantic at all and definitely no interest at all to help me get there again...
Honestly, right now, I am not trying to explain anything anymore. All the explanations of the world do nothing for me now, I need actions I dont see. I am again full speed detaching and already feeling better. And yes it is not lovingly detaching, it's just plain, real detaching. Withdrawing, quiting, giving up, you can call it whatever you want. K
