Newly separated...spouse left, 3rd thread

[antlers]

This is a hard way to live

Understood.

Things that helped me cope:
- prayed for others(especially that the Holy Spirit was working on my W), wisdom, discerment, strength
- walked/played with my dog (Phoebe the Wonder Lab)
- exercise
- thought about what I was grateful for
- posted/vented/journaled here
- cried
- stayed busy

You can handle it.

I've done some selfish praying, I suppose, by asking God to please help us heal our marriage. That's been since very early January. Things are worse now. Now, I'm praying that God will make his will for me known to me, and asking for his strength and guidance to do what He would have me to do. I also pray for healing for her. I will also pray for wisdom and discernment. Is it selfish to pray that God will work on her?

We recently got a new kitten for the kids, but I enjoy him also while the kids are gone.

I ride my bike on a regular basis. I've lost about 85 pounds since this all started.

Maybe thinking more about what I'm grateful for would be helpful to me? Kinda hard to do right now though, with all the disappointment, remorse, and heartache.

I'm here a lot. And I'm thankful for this site, and those who are also here.

Done a lot of that, especially early on...not much recently though.

Trying to. I work 36 hours a week in a very busy ER...three 12 hour shifts a week. I have my kids on every day off.



Right now I want to enjoy life with our kids and give them some slack, not too much, for they are hurting too and don't have the life experience to deal with this. And I want to get better...much better.