Yes it does, the depth of which simply cannot be imagined unless experienced. I've been told, and can believe, that it's worse than death or divorce, because there is no closure, no finality. But I am, as you seem to also be, committed to not being the one to end the relationship, and to do anything and everything possible to get it back on track. Even if it means letting go, dropping the rope, giving her the time and space she wants and needs.