Healing my Heart part 7

[fightingirish]

Nc~

I will be the first one to say that I know that no relationship is perfect. But believe me when I tell you that there was constant abuse in his home, I saw it for myself.

Therefore I do believe that this does spill over into his own relationships with people. Constantly putting someone down and critizing them is the way he tries to get things across to me, this is what his father did to his own mother. That is only one thing that he did. There was always drama with his parents. They were cruel to one another, and then would forget it happend. It blew my mind.

I do understand what you are saying though, I do. Its just that I have let his treatment of me continue for so long, I just can't bear it anymore, and with the kids it gets multiplied a 100x's.

I know this is my fault for letting it continue, I take full ownernship of it. But I do want to end it now and make a better life for the boys.

Don't get me wrong, its not bad all the time, just when it is bad, its really bad, and every time it happens it takes me longer and longer to come back from it. He tries to break my spirit when this goes on and has called me every name in the book, but what's bad is that Im becoming numb to it.

And you took the words right out of my mouth.. I do think he is going to be stupid and say lets seperate, because of his stubborness and his aroggance.. everything is about him. Then I don't know what the heck im going to do. I can't repair my Marriage by myself.

Ok so how do I lovingly detach?? Is that even possible??

if I do leave he will have knowone to run the business, that should be interesting, the thing is if the business goes down hill we BOTH are in trouble because this is where our income comes from...

yes my family is worth it, im just so close to running out of steam.

thanks again.