Setting Boundaries for MLC Alien H

[In Limbo]

Venting.....welcome anyone else's thoughts or venting too.

H never called last night after failing to meet me to keep the boys and still hasn't called. Even through all the craziness, this is completely new behavior. So I'm going through the stupid process of racking my brain trying to figure out what happened. I know it's useless, just haven't developed the self-control to make it stop. UGH! BUT I will NOT contact him. I guess if he does contact me, I put on a smile and act like it's no big deal (THAT would be a 180 for sure)? Do I tell him the boys were concerned or would that be laying guilt on him? Do I use this as an opportunity to discuss boundaries around when he'll have the kids? Right now it's all me all the time unless I'm on business travel and then I still have to set up sitters for nights he has class and mornings he has to leave for work early. I've always been the primary caregiver (almost exclusive caregiver) but it's almost overwhelming when coupled with this emotional roller coaster. I feel so much for those that have really small kids, not sure how you guys do it.

How can they do this to their kids? What do I tell the boys when they ask where he is and why he never showed? (note: we haven't even told the boys he's moved out, they just think he's had lots of business travel with new job)

It's good to read everyone else's posts to see that even if M doesn't make it, there are lots of folks out there that survive. I'm in a foul mood this morning because I took something to help me sleep last night and did sleep (good) but had the first dream I've ever had about H and OW (very bad). So it's been hard to even pretend to detach this morning. Think I need to go back to setting short term goals and get myself to focus there whenever I start to go down the path of what ifs....