Just continue to be true to yourself. Your motivations came from the right place and you know that - forget what anyone else says. No two situations are exactly the same. I know if I were to call up my H today and try to say what you said, it would come out all wrong, the timing is not right, it would majorly backfire. But that doesn't mean you were wrong. Heck, it doesn't even mean I shouldn't at some point do the same thing, just not now.
I have a faith question for you. Did your faith ever waiver at any point during all this? I have found it difficult to pray at times and it's really bothering me. I don't blame God for my situation, but just feel disconnected from Him and His guidance at times.
Keep your chin up and keep doing what you're doing!
IL--
If I had tried to have this same conversation with my DH a year ago it would not have worked. He would have never listened to me. What has changed? Primarily--I have. I have become calmer, more rational, more focused, more in-tune with my kids. I did not attack him. I was matter of fact and stuck to the facts. But, he had also observed changes in me prior to his leaving on deployment and I am sure there are things that he noticed, via my email responses, packages, and phone conversations during the deployment. The hostilities had diffused in our R.
Did my faith ever waver? The more apt question is DOES my faith ever waver? There are still times I pray for the Holy Spirit to help me combat feelings of hopelessness. I know that no situation is hopeless in God's eyes--he is a God of miracles. But at times I take my eyes of the end result and look at my circumstances. Those are the times that I waver in faith. I need to stay focused on Gods plans, not mine. There are times I pray despite the fact that I don't want to. I have found that by keeping praise and worship music playing in the background, it is easier for me to get myself into the right mindset. While I may start out not wanting to pray, once I start and the dam breaks, the real block comes out and God and I can reconcile the problem and move forward. I hope that helps a bit.
I am hanging in here. I have the Greatest Counselor in my corner and He already knows the end result. I can walk with Him, knowing that He will never fail me.
Living God's blessings with grace and dignity~ SMW
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Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. I Corinthians 13:7
