Don't blame yourself. What a man and a woman do together consensually is not wrong. We have a range of desires...some of them seemingly odd to others. But a husband and wife who are intimate in a way they both agree to is not wrong. There is no "right" way to ML if both parties agree.
I think it's good to speak the truth. I honestly believe that more damage is done by withholding the truth than by speaking the truth with love. We sacrifice ourselves when we don't tell the truth.
Good luck, tonight. You may not see an immediate change, but I know that seeds planted with love eventually bear fruit.
SD
Me: 40 H: 43 H had EA from 2/06-9/06 Bomb 5/06 Piecing since 9/2006 3/2008: Boundary setting 7/2009: Boundary crossing~dropped my own bomb. 8/2010: Marriage finally on track!