There is a forum right here on this board that talks about walkaways. As you enter the forum, scroll down like you did when you hunted for mlc. It's further down on the screen.
Do a bit of creative thinking...type in mid-life crisis and any other topic that comes to mind and see what you get on google. The net has a lot of information out there...you just have to type in a word or two for the search engine to find it for you.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.