Just continue to be true to yourself. Your motivations came from the right place and you know that - forget what anyone else says. No two situations are exactly the same. I know if I were to call up my H today and try to say what you said, it would come out all wrong, the timing is not right, it would majorly backfire. But that doesn't mean you were wrong. Heck, it doesn't even mean I shouldn't at some point do the same thing, just not now.
I have a faith question for you. Did your faith ever waiver at any point during all this? I have found it difficult to pray at times and it's really bothering me. I don't blame God for my situation, but just feel disconnected from Him and His guidance at times.
Keep your chin up and keep doing what you're doing!
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