You are too down on yourself-- you were absolutely worthy of your X's love!
Sorry, I wasn't clear--I recognize now that my thought processes for years were that I must have been defective because he wasn't very loving or very happy with me. Which led to resentment on my part, and there ya go for that cycle. While I wasn't perfect, I know now that I was worthy of his love. In fact, If I had just had a tiny smidge, I would have continued to do anything for him. But it just wasn't there.
M60 H52 D20 M14 yrs OW-old gf from 1986 bomb-5/18/08 H filed for D-9/10/08 D final 4/24/09 xH remarried (not OW) 2012
