One last thing before letting other folks comment....I think I have already said enough.
When Woog used to say your husband was broken, I had no clue how right he was. Do not feel any guilt about what you did. If you were my sister, I would strongly urge you to put an end to this marriage tommorow....walk and don't look back. After all he has put you through BBJ, i hope you know that you deserve MUCH MUCH better!