Yes, I do see an IC about once a week and he is helping me tremendously. He is helping me to work on things which I have wanted to change for a long time, for example, I want to be more assertive and outgoing. I have been doing much better with this at work as now I'm leading meetings and have done some presentations in front of groups of people. Before the bomb I would have been way too nervous or not jumped at any opportunity to grow like I have been these last few months. Also, the way I felt when talking with W this past weekend, was very different than I have felt in the past. I felt much stronger and more confident when speaking to her. In addition, have noticed that when I speak to others I'm not as timid or as shy as I have been in the past. This is something I want to keep going as it feels so good. Sometimes, I feel my patience is lacking as I miss W so very much and I get frustrated with myself. I'm sure this is normal as my IC says everything that I have been feeling or thinking is normal in this situation. I'm glad I'm not going crazy, which I don't think I really am. I told my boys last night how proud I am of them during this transition and that I love them very much. They both gave me big hugs
Thank you for your kind words and as I build up my self-esteem and self-confidence I'll be stronger and better than ever!
