Sure I would love to have her back. Sure I would do anything to get her back, but I'm doing what my coach and the book says to do in extreme circumstances, and I just don't see any results - at least from her end.
Now on my end, I do feel better. I'm so busy, I can barely find time to even write here. I just wish I could see some glimer from her. There is nothing. She could care less about how I feel or what I am doing. She never asks - never talks to me about anything except the boys, money, and the D settlement. And, I for sure am not going to bring up any of that stuff.
I just feel like screaming at her: "I am worth loving! I am a good man who would do anything for you! You have no idea what you are destroying, and what this will do to our boys! I'm worth it!"
I'll shut up now that I've done my cyber scream. I am getting better. I just wish our marriage could say the same.
Yes, please don't see your boys less. It wouldn't be good for them or for you.
It sounds like you are having lots of positive changes in your life. Your W will notice your actions believe it. I've had dozens of people tell me how great I seem, how positive, etc. If they're noticing I would assume it's pretty obvious. H said it several times and has told family members and stuff how great I'm doing I've been told. So they do notice even if they don't say anything.
And you are improving your marriage. If you do R, you will have a better, stronger, healthier marriage b/c you are stronger and healthier. If your W doesn't eventually notice you're a good man and you are worth it, then you will find someone that does. I know the patience is the hardest thing, but you will eventually be much happier. Karen
