Newly Seperated - What To Do?

[Uncool Cat]

I'm not really sure what to do anymore with my sitch. I've been dark for weeks now. I haven't had any bad conversations with her. We have been going back and forth a little bit about when the boys can see me and when they can't, but even that hasn't been any real argument.

I guess on the good side nothing seems to be moving in a negative direction. But, nothing seems to be moving in any kind of positive direction either. The sad thing is I seem to care less and less about it. It's like I'm getting numb to it. I just want her to finish it. Get it over with so I can move on.

Sure I would love to have her back. Sure I would do anything to get her back, but I'm doing what my coach and the book says to do in extreme circumstances, and I just don't see any results - at least from her end.

Now on my end, I do feel better. I'm so busy, I can barely find time to even write here. I just wish I could see some glimer from her. There is nothing. She could care less about how I feel or what I am doing. She never asks - never talks to me about anything except the boys, money, and the D settlement. And, I for sure am not going to bring up any of that stuff.

I just feel like screaming at her: "I am worth loving! I am a good man who would do anything for you! You have no idea what you are destroying, and what this will do to our boys! I'm worth it!"

I'll shut up now that I've done my cyber scream. I am getting better. I just wish our marriage could say the same.