Still no contact with the W. One strange thing is that she added me as a friend to her facebook, which I found odd. Maybe trying to check up??? Either way, I don't spend much time on there any how.
I finished boxing the majority of her remaining items this weekend. It wasn't as difficult as I expected it to be. It actually lifted my spirits in a weird way. I put all of her things in a guest bedroom.
I am still feeling very strong, which I am happy about. I had a great weekend hanging out with my friends. A few of us went and boweled until 2am Saturday night. On Sunday we went out to a couple of restaurants with bands out on the water. It was just an all around nice weekend.
My mindset is getting firmer with the idea that my situation isn't the end of the world. I still have down moments, but the highs seem to be much more prevalent. I had the best nights sleep that I have had since the bomb last night and I woke up with high spirits.
Is it normal/healthy to develop this type of mindset? I am certainly feeling much better, but I am also scared of crashing back to where I was. I am developing more of an "oh well" attitude regarding wondering what she is thinking and what her next move will be. These are feelings that I haven't felt before and is all quite new to me. The main fear that I have now is if I am doing everything right.
M 30 WAW 29 T 15 M 5 ILYBNILWY 3/8/09 Separated 3/14/09
