H tries to start a fight with me this morning. He went to bed last night pouting... I didn't bite.
I did tell him the following: I will no longer deal with your yelling and screaming. when you can talk to me like an adult is when I will communicate with you. Your nasty attitude towards me and the kids will not be tolerated anymore.
He then starts with the cat again.... I said this is not about the cat, it is how you treat me when you talk to me. Your verbally abusive and angry all the time.
I said, You have nothing to complain about, I take care of you, the house, the business and the kids, What more do you want out of me, to totally take away my spirit???
Then he says, well, we can just be friends, (im like "yea who the hell would want to be your friend???) I didn't say that though. i said nothing.
So now is he giving himself permission to cheat now.. that was the first thing that popped into my head, and lord help me, if that is true, I will be leaving skid marks, i will absoultey not deal with that again(any form of it).
So silence again. he just doesn't think the way he talks to me is wrong. Swearing etc. I don't swear in front of my kids (im not perfect either, I do slip) but generally I don't. He has a truck driver mouth, which I can't stand.
What I was thinking was, Im going to talk to my girlfriend, and see maybe if when s6 is out of school i may go and stay with her for awhile. I know she will take us in, Even if it is for only a week or two. I think I need to be away from him.
All I feel anymore is anger, I don't want me kids to see an angry mommy all the time.
Good lord hindsight is 20/20. Why oh why did I not see this coming. i could kick myself.
On top of it all he's going to work on sunday, yup mothers day. I'm not mad though, really. I would rather just be with my kids alone and not deal with his drama.
btw doc, If I had the means I would hop on a plane, trust me..
I just don't understand how a person can just be so hurtful and mean to someone they are supposed to love and care for.
My brain hurts trying to even guess what the heck is going through his messed up mind right now.
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
