Episode IV: A New Hope (?)

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Haven't heard from the kids since last Wednesday, kind of stinks. I am definately giving S10 my phone for his birthday so that I can keep in touch with them without having to go through her.

Ohh man. So I texted STBX shortly after posting that, asking if the kids were ok and that it would be nice to hear from them every once in a while.

So, I'm almost home last night and my phone rings and it's her number (I don't use my cell while driving). So I get settled in when I get home and call. She answers. We have a nice conversation for all of 5 minutes in regards to a text I had sent last week to which she did not reply asking if I could do something for her for Mother's Day, response ultimately endedup being, "I'd love to, but we need to be friends first", ok, no biggie, just thought I'd ask.

As soon as that gets resolved, conversation nose dives as she goes right back in to the same old issues, yelling and screaming and beating the already dead horse further into the grave. I endured a half hour of this and only talked to one son for all of a few minutes.

Once again all is my fault, blah, blah, blah. Atleast somewhere in all her rhetoric I got upgraded from "a-hole" to "husband" again, how did that happen?

I don't get it, really really don't. The king killer now, SHE blames ME for needing a divorce.

So conversation ended as usuall, "we cant talk". So fine, I will contact my L in the morning and arrange some other means. Wouldn't you know a few minutes later S10 calls, we speak then I speak with S12 and mission is accomplished. No sooner than I hang up the phone she texts "thanks for the threat BTW". Sorry dear, it's not a threat, relax.

Uggh, this is utterly confusing. And wouldn't you know, this morning I get spotted in the local gas station by her co-worker and no more than a few minutes later she's blazing by in OM's car, why? She completely still has no remorse for leaving me for OM and yet when the conversation started last night, once again came so close as to hint that if we could be friends and talk more often, then yes, we can hang out, do stuff and "who knows". WTF is that?

Well, that's all I've got, more confusion and more unanswered questions.