Ok wow... weird night last night. Pretty normal evening, just trading pleasantries and such. She sat down and watched a movie (The Notebook), and I went into the other room and called my sis, and we talked for a few hours.
After the movie was finished and I was off the phone, she sat down in the office next to me, and started crying and said that she was so sorry that we are here. I told her I was sorry too. We sat in silence for a few minutes, and I said that we do have a unique opportunity to make it better than it was, and that I believe we can do it together. She nodded her head. This was really the first sign of something positive out of this situation within the last few days.
We then got up to head to bed. I said hold on a sec, come here, to which she paused. I gave her hug, to which from her side was very light, like she really did not want to. She quickly let go and walked away.
Once in bed, I said I'm sorry, I thought you needed a hug, and I know I could use one. She said I did not have to apologize. I said good night and I love you. Her response was goodnight, very snappy, almost short and annoyed.
Arrrg. I can't keep up with the emotion swings sometimes. Feels like I am always one step behind right now, and end up doing or saying the wrong thing, adding frustration to the situation instead of helping.
