Bagheera and Lucky,

I am determined to blow the SSM curve (10% success rate \:o ) and be one of those success stories too. It may take a separation to get her on board but damnit, if that's what it takes, I'll do it. I know I can get through to her.

I'm so tired of the reactionary involvement of Mrs. Cinco. "Well I guess I'd better put out or he'll leave me." I want her thinking about and enjoying sex for herself.

I am doing my part. I am cooking meals now! Who would have ever thought that Cinco would be in the kitchen cooking. I'm bringing home the paycheck again. The Cinco family is in great financial shape thanks to me. We are about to buy a slightly used car for D with cash! I'm no longer angry.

Am I in a covert contract expecting something in return when I shouldn't? I tell her what I want. Over and over I let her know I want connection and passion with her...

Dragging her to MC or ST now would be like trying to take an alcoholic to AA who still doesn't think he has a drinking problem.

I am not giving up but what I have been doing isn't working either. Now what?

Cinco