My Sailor is Back-but not Home

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DH put his stuff in the back of his car and turned around. I asked DH if he had any idea how bad he was hurting the kids with this? He said he doesn’t want to hurt the kids. I said do you think they are just going to get over this? H e said no. I said to him, “Do you know what the first thought that went through my mind was when D5 told me that she stood in the window and watched you pull out of the driveway?” He said “When your dad walked out and you were sick with mono and lying on the sofa.”

I said “Yeah, the only difference was I was 15 and trying to process those feelings, she is only 5. I cannot imagine how difficult all of this is for her, but I do know she was still very sad about it when she left for school the next morning. S3 walked around the house crying for you for over 2 hours. But, as hard and painful as that was to deal with for the kids, the worst incident did not happen until after I talked to you on the phone. D9 came downstairs and I told her you had just called. I asked her if she wanted to call you back and she could talk to you, but that I did not want S3 and D5 to talk to you right now. She said no, he did not want to talk to you. Then, she asked me when you would be home and I had to had no idea, that you had not given me any dates. She leaned back against the door and her eyes got really big. I asked her if she wanted to talk about anything. She said no. I told her that it was okay to talk about things if they are bothering you. Her eyes filled up, she laid down on the floor, and she sobbed uncontrollably while I held her for about 20 minutes. She kept asking me over and over why Daddy’s friends were more important than they were. And I couldn’t give her an answer.” While I was telling him this, my eyes filled with tears, but I would not cry in front of him.


One more post should get it all out here.

Living God's blessings with grace and dignity~
SMW