Hi Hoosier, I am pleased in away that this madness is over for you and that by grace you have forgiven your x. I also think with that comes acceptance which is a step f/ward in the moving on with life.
Be grateful that your x still has his d in his life b/c although my x was as kind as he could be during our break up he completely removed his children from his life (and they have him) and that is a pain I will always carry and never understand.
I wish you well with finding employment and making new friends. Not an easy task as we get older but it is possible. Did you get to keep the house? Take care of yourself and congratulations on the mower! I had a similar battle with mine and the joy when I mastered it. Yes we are woman-hear us roar. Take care.
