Yes. Part of me wants to deny that she is an undiagnosed BP, but her journal/behavior reads like a who's who of the DSM-IV criteria for the disorder.
Ultimately her words and actions towards myself and the children are inexcusable and I should really not be holding out hope for anything.
Her distortion campaign was underway long before we got to this point. Spreading rumors/lies around the neighborhood - and looking back she would repeat some of them to me and I'd ask why she was telling people something that wasn't true. I wasn't aware I was dealing with crazy at that point.
I lost 40 lbs in a month when this started... she tried everything she could do in order to make me feel horrible about myself. Eventually I stood up and pulled it together enough to withstand their sneak attack with the lawyer. Now I'm holding the cards and setting the pace.
I guess what upsets me... I've pulled together a long-term gameplan to trial. I just didn't want to go this route - because ultimately these things just create hurt feelings... but then I remind myself that I was the one who was attacked. I'm the defendant. even if in name only.
I did not see this coming... subconsciously I knew something was going to happen... but I didn't anticipate the depth of depravity that I would be facing. People I loved and respected too weak to stand for anything - and to even be openly complicit in the destruction of my marriage - after I put myself through extreme stress just to be there for them!
They couldn't be bothered to lift a finger for me. So I'm going to do what I have to do. I just hate being in this position... I'm a good warrior in the legal sense... but a reluctant one because I've experienced first-hand the damage that occurs.
"You can't reason someone out of a position they didn't reason themselves into."
